Rollercoaster...of love...Trying to get to the top

[wishing, hoping]

My H is still at home but he has moved into the spare bedroom which is good and bad at the same time. I never asked him to move, but it happened after the A was uncovered and I know he was just too ashamed to share a room with me.

H cannot afford to move out. Friends tell me I should kick him out, but I can't do it. Where would he go? Kids would blame me. And frankly it is harder to DB if we live separately.

We occasionally talk, but I do not initiate. He can be moody or joking depending on the day. I will tell you the dynamic has changed. Before I was walking on eggshells around him, but now he seems to be walking on eggshells around me. I don't think he needs to, but I think it's part of the shame.