Optimistic...not hopeless! :)

[wishing, hoping]

Please believe that your H is ashamed to see you and afraid of what you will say and doesn't have the slightest idea of what to say to you. I asked my H at one point how he could consider me a friend when he didn't look at me or talk to me and hated being around me. He said that was very far from the truth and that he cared about me more than I will ever know but that he never knew what to say to me. I know my H is ashamed and confused but that just makes him retreat farther into the arms of OW who accepts him for who he is and has no idea about his demons and doesn't really know who he really is. I look at my H and can just see the pain in his eyes.

So don't think for a moment your H is out living the high life without you. He is running away from reality. One day reality will more than likely smack him in the face.