Really not good. dmond I guess I had hopes of being friends. not going to happen for a while. We have a business and do very well. The divorce is eating her up. She is totally engulfed with me taking advantage of her. Which is very strange. She left she hired attorney, she filed. All I have said for quite some time I want to be friends.
I believe it's time to really just back away. from her. LRT I guess. I cannot keep going on this roller coaster of emotion with her. One minute she is nice, the next I never did anything right. She is taking great pride in hurting me. I wish the best for her. She has got to be in some serious pain.
She has completely changed from the person I knew. She stays constantly busy, I'm sure to not think about things. She has a new set of friends, out doing things often. Which is great.
Women are just better at the seperation thing I guess. I am still so emotional. I was always a tough guy and I am so sensitive lately. Been 2 months and am sick of the emotional stress. I have weeks where I do well, then back to lousy.
I really need to get my swagger back, I need to just her go. Some days she is nice and sweet and then says terrible hurtful things. The hardest part is I care. I care she feels bad but she has to go through this and there is absolutely zero I can do to prevent.
By me saying lets be friends, or I care. Is now not helping. May be pushing further away.
