Not sure where to start, Part 3

[wishing, hoping]

He's done this kind of thing before. He's told me stories about his family prefacing with "you probably dont want to hear this, but..." or something about his work saying "I probably shouldnt tell you this but...". It's rather confusing. He used to tell me that kind of stuff all the time.

My friends and family are very surprised that I am still being civil to H. They all think I should just cut my losses. I know I have to let go and I am letting go. But down deep I still love him and care for him. I can tell he is hurting and I can't help but empathize. I shudder to know what is going on in his head. Now granted I do not like what he has turned into. But I cannot help but think of the man I married and what saddens me is the reality That he may never be that man again.

I just keep focusing on myself and Being a better me. My goal (or one of them) is to get that glow from within.