I was thinking about something I came across the other day when I was writing about my marriage. And I want to share this with you.
“ Immature people falling in love destroy each other’s freedom, create a bondage, make a prison. Mature persons in love help each other to be free; they help each other to destroy all sorts of bondages. And when love flows with freedom there is beauty. When love flows with dependence there is ugliness." - Osho
When I read this at first, I could feel myself bristle. I don't like the idea of letting something that I love go. Maybe at some point I held on too tightly and I was not allowing love to be free between my h and I. It's like a beautiful butterfly landing in the palm of your hand, and you close it your fingers around it so it won't fly away, but what ends up happening is, the butterfly is smashed and can no longer fly at all.
I didn't want to create a sense of bondage with my husband and I, but I wanted a bond. One of the hardest things I went through was letting him go so he could make the choice. At the time I was struggling with symptoms of my disease, and he was afraid to leave. I had to stand up anyway and be strong and let him know that I was, and that way he could make the choice based on his heart and not his fears of what would become of me should he go.
I did not want a partner to stay with me out of fear of what would become of me either. That's bondage and that's not a love that moves freely between us.
At the end, it was scary for me to say "Okay, then go", and "I will be just fine, I have plans". I didn't think there was going to be any peace in letting go, but there was.
When he decided to come back to me, I knew 100 % certain he was coming back because he loved me, not because he pitied me.
Didn't mean to hijack your thread..... just wanted to share some of those thoughts.
