I no longer have any contact with the OM and have not since Jan. He still tries to contact me but I block every new avenue as soon as he does. My FB has always been set to private. I have no photos or letters from him. I do not wish to have any contact with him. I go to IC and MC alone. My H acts as if we are already D. Which will not be final until 12/12. My H will not talk to me at all about our R. I know he is still hurt and he feels as if he can no longer trust me. He cannot get the A out of his head. I have read books about D and A. I am now reading After the Affair. I am working on my boundry issues with all people. I no longer speak to people of the opposite sex about my R. It is my fault I could not talk to my H. I hated making him angry so I avoided all confrontation. I realize my faults in our marriage and I am working had on changing those faults. I was never a "nag" I just didn't say anything at all. I now know no one is perfect and I was still searching for perfection. But I now realize that I love my H because of his imperfections as well as his perfections.
