The idea of, I think someone called it, a dance of uncertainty is massive for me.
I make lists, I plan, I look at things from every angle, I set things up and have all the information ahead of time. It makes me great at my job, not so great at M.
I've said before I can't influence or manipulate the situation. What I do want to do in developing my friendship is making sure he trusts that even though my Change of Heart hit him as he said out the blue it is permanent. But I don't want to pursue or pressure.
The problem with going dark and pursuing is that they are two sides of the coin. I need a different currency!
Instead of thinking a good friend texts, calls, etc and doesn't worry about who initiated, I need to remember that a good friend respects what the other needs. He needs space, he needs time, and my patience.
I have to just let it go, trust that he will come back to the friendship, and be there when he does.
