Detached, but not Broken-a diary of a LRT

[Broken74]

First off, I know this is mind reading, but beyond a shadow of a doubt there is something going in my W's head. She has been playing this and many other "I messed up/take me back" songs repeatedly on a daily basis. This one a number of times yesterday, it could be considered the "WAS Anthem" IMHO.

Artist: Phone Calls From Home lyrics
Title: Forget You

I'm out of luck, I'm out of state
Call on the phone
Is it too late to talk this over with you?
They tell me that it's okay to be out of line,
To make mistakes
To lie and say, I'll be fine without you

How am I gonna take the fall, forget you?
Try to move on without you
Oh, oh.
I can't let go.
How am I gonna take the fall, forget you?
I'll try to move on without you.
Oh, oh.
I can't let go.

I lost your trust, I broke your heart
Two kids in love, cursed from the start
Is this false hope?
I can't decide
But I just can't let you go

Honestly imagine what we could be
Could you bare to let me go?
Could you live without me now?
I need to know
Could you bare to let me go?

How am I gonna take the fall, forget you?
Try to move on without you
Oh, oh.
I can't let go.
How am I gonna take the fall, forget you?
I'll try to move on without you.
Oh, oh.
I can't let go.

I'll take back every word
Let's go back to where we were before
In love
Take me back
We'll find the way, I lost track
I'm ready to change for you
For good.

Take the fall, forget you
Try to move on without you
Oh, oh.
I can't let go.
How am I gonna take the fall, forget you?
I'll try to move on without you.
Oh, oh,oh.

How am I gonna take the fall, forget you?
Try to move on without you
Oh, oh.
I can't let go.
How am I gonna take the fall, forget you?
I'll try to move on without you.
Oh, oh.
I can't let go.

How am I gonna take the fall, forget you?
Try to move on without you
Oh, oh.
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

Couple this with the fact that she unblocked me on FB, and the positive exchanges that we had Sunday/Monday, it seems that she is wanting to start reeling back in a bit but is probably scared or ashamed. I KNOW THIS IS MIND READING BUT I CAN"T HELP IT.

I reiterate that I am GAL out the wazoo and am TRYING to be detached. I know I will be fine if we D beyond a SHADOW OF DOUBT. BUT I can't help but feel that my sitch is about to take some type of turn and it is FREAKING ME OUT.

I really could use some veteran feedback on how to handle mothers day and our anniversary (5/21). Should I go dark and let her simmer, or do something thoughtful but inexpensive like I did with the care package for her exam which she liked and shows a Man only a fool would leave. I've also continued the 529k investments for my stepchildren and have not and will not be mentioning these at all.

I am finally at the point where I HAVE FORGIVEN her and am leaving the past in the past and that our marriage as we knew it is over. I can honestly say I am not going to bring up the past again. She is probably gunshy because every time we have talked in the past prior to our last exchanges, things have got heated and I have brought up her transgressions in some way. I am not going to do that anymore, without her saying anything, based on the music she is listening to it seems obvious that she is remorseful for her affair and what she put me through.

The timing is on par with something she had said previously, alluding to this month being 8 months of our "sitch" versus the 8 months I was unfaithful to her while we were dating. Maybe she is getting to the point of feeling we are on "even ground" so to speak.

So 2x4's are welcomed because I know this is all MIND READING but the preponderance of the evidence is there that SOMETHING IS GOING ON IN HER HEAD and it is DRIVING ME CRAZY.

So should I do something thoughtful for mothers day/anniversary or go dark?

AAAAAAAAAAAAarrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhh so frustrating but I am handling things so much different now...

Thanks in advance for any feedback and good luck to all in your respective sitch's!