My Story So Far. Is this even worth saving?

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Didn't go out shopping last night. Went to dinner with my parents, which was nice. Went to The Keg, which I always enjoy. Had a nice evening, went home, watched some TV and vegged out. It was relaxing. H came home and started in on my lingering cough. Apparently I wasn't covering my mouth as much as he would prefer. I was a little annoyed and told him to stop complaining and to leave me alone. He said, "What's wrong with you? What happened today to put you in a mood?" I was like WTF???!?! I was just sitting on the couch, watching TV and he jumped all over me. I just told him nothing was wrong, that I was trying to watch TV and it would be nice if he could just leave me alone. He shut up after that. I really think that is a perfect example of him projecting his feelings onto me. I was actually in a really good mood until he came in and ruined it.

I have made a decision. I'm going to be just fine. Whatever happens with my R, whether we stay together or not, I'll be fine. I know I will. I'm not going to stay in a relationship that makes me miserable or makes me feel bad about who I am. That is what true DB-ing is about, in my books. I'm going to focus on the only things I can control and change, and that is me. If H doesn't want to grow with me, that's his problem. This bus is leaving the station. He can either get on board or be left behind. I love him more than anything, but I realized that I need to love myself, as well. And I haven't done that for a long time. How can I expect anyone to love me when I can't even like, let alone love, myself?

The thought of not being with H is terrifying. We've been together since I was 16. But I know I'll be ok. I know that everything will work out in the end. But working out and being ok isn't contingent on being married to H. Like I said, I'm not looking to divorce him, I'm going to fight for the M, but not at the expense of losing myself.