If I were really honest and really looking at things, I'd say it's my anger coming out, which stems from feeling inadequate as a wife. Why else would my H look outside of our M if I was good enough?
Hey Ro, completely understand the feelings, just need to say that your H's decisison are his and who you are does not force anyone to make bad choices. There's not a single one of us who is perfect. Your H looked outside of the M because he was stupid and insecure with himself. He may try and blame you but that's just the insecurity and guilt of not wanting to look inside.
Let go of those feelings of inadequacy & fault. It takes time but they are lies that keep you down. You are "beautifully & wonderously made"! Take care.
I had been doing pretty good. Some days I start second guessing whether this really all my fault.
Ces, thank you for your continued words of encouragement! You have no idea how they help me!
