I'm a horrible sitch to read! I came here posted that I wouldn't call him and then I did. BAD BRIT!

positive: he offered to drive me to my specialist appointment. He said well depending on when it is...let me know...if I can I'd be happy to take you. (I know from reading a bit on 5 Lang of Love that his is acts of service. he once told me he almost cried opening a sandwich I'd made him for lunch. I thought that was so silly and that making a man's lunch was so 1950s housewife and we were above that. I should have listened and learned. For Future Ref I will.)

negative: I brought up upcoming night out with friends visiting from outside the country. Asked if he was still planning to come. (I'm cringing at the thought!) He said "yeah, should do, we'll see, but yeah I think so. When is it? yeah we'll see."

That whole exchange made me mentally think of a boxer dancing around in the corner trying not to get caged.
The truth is it doesn't matter if he's going. I'll be going to see my friends who I haven't seen in 4 years who have flown half way around the world. Whether or not he goes is up to him. It's a big group situation and me asking was adding more pressure to it.
Cheeseless tunnels I'm looking at you.

other positives: we laughed a lot. I did not bring up FB-gate from yesterday or the fact that OW's car had been parked on my road for their trip to the city yesterday.

The truth is our "friendship" is a heck of a lot better than it was a month ago when we had a crazy-town argument about him texting me using a pet name the same day he took OW for Easter lunch at his mothers.

He said he didn't want it to be weird and minus my flirting yesterday (which he didn't seem to think was awkward) everything has been friendly, upbeat, positive etc. (even if I have at times felt violently ill at the idea of him not coming back/spending time with her/enjoying all the wonders of life without me I have not let him see it!)

Now I'm putting the communication horse back in stable. And should it give me big brown sad eyes I will come here instead!