What do I do next? Part 4

[luvhurts49]

I get what you're saying Accuray and I have re-connected with some friends I had from years ago. Trying to find someone to do things with (as friends) is hard because everyone has their own lives too. I don't have time to volunteer or take a class. Economy has made it hard for me to switch jobs and I'm trying to keep my house, so moving is out of the question. Oh and I live is a smallish town so meetup (yes, I looked into it) is pretty much non-existent unless I want to join a book club (not gonna happen). Dating is one of those things that I just cannot do and I don't know if I will ever be in a place to even want to. Part of me believes that if I can't be with my W, then I won't be with anyone.

Anytime I think that I've taken a step forward, something keeps pulling my two steps back. I don't always know what that is, but I'm sure it always leads back to my W. I do want to be happy and I'm trying to make that happen, but it just hasn't happened for me yet.