My friend and I started doing the Love Dare Journal together. Day one says, be positive and don't say anything negative. Even if you don't agree with what they have to say.

I made a negative remark on the first day, then the second, then I got a neck spasm. Had to go to the ER to get a shot of painkillers. I realized, I am VERY hard on myself. I don't allow there to be mistakes. Perfection is expected.

I was at the ER on Fri night and I got a massage today. It's awful. Any little thing gives me MORE stress!

Forget the Love Dare Journal. I can't even look at my regular daily meditation without feeling overwhelmed (working on relaxing has become a chore). I go to Al Anon pressuring myself to "detach" "live and let live" etc, etc.

HOW DO I GET PAST THIS??

M 42 H 39
T10 (-2yrs separation)
S8 D5
DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA)
Reconciled 6/2013
Separation in works 1/2017