Been working on adding a little bit of space between us. We did meet up at church - I don't want to "weaponize" God - so I figure that is a neutral, positive place for the three of us. Ironically, the title of the message was "Stop It!" - in reference to self destructive thinking that leads you to negative places and experiences. And yes, I thought of many of you and the advice I have received on that very topic. Timely, indeed. I took notes.
In putting distance between w and myself, and just being "cool" about things - I have somehow managed to get a call on the drive to work at 8:00 AM asking to talk to the baby when she pretty much knows I drop him off at 7:30. She sent me an e-mail at work telling me about a nice thank-you note that she got from one of her students that almost made her cry. After I responded she e-mail back saying she didn't know why she "bragged to me about it" and that "she just felt like sharing it with someone". *SIGH* then she texted me looking for 2011 tax documents to give to her L.
She asked to Skype with s tonight - which I don't have a problem with. Then she texted saying that she was "writing me an appreciation letter" - I was a little shocked by that, to be honest. Wondering what, exactly, the content of that will be. Minutes later she called and nixed the Skyping because "the tears were flowing" from writing the letter.
I'll try not to over-think it, but it confounds me greatly to try to reconcile her claiming to have no feelings and a closed heart towards me, and yet have a well of emotions that leads her to tears when writing and appreciation letter. I guess it just may be one of those things I am not meant to understand.
