NRTS (Not Repairable at This Station)

[WenikiTiki]

Sadly H sucked me into another talk, he started it. I tried to be nice. He got nasty, and stormed off to his room. Sulked, didn't eat dinner, told me I still need to feed him since I'm taking his money.

He made more threats about money, which I just don't get. I ended up crying a whole bunch, and then realized IT JUST DOESN'T MATTER.

Some how or another he has turned into a flaming a$$hole. Maybe he was all along and I was looking at him through extra strength rose colored glasses.

No matter. I just need to take care of myself. I need to figure out where to go, what to do with myself. I need to get off the fence.

He and I need to not be under the same roof. He has a lot of growing up to do. It is just too painful for me to be part of the process. Since selling the house and getting divorced seem to be part and parcel I guess I need to just work my magic and make it happen.

And yes KML, the talks need to not be held here anymore. I won't let him suck me in again.

And try as I might, I cannot validate when he throws mean accusations at me. I know they are his feelings, but he does and says things just to get me mad. Only I don't get mad, I just cry. I think he is confusing me with OW who gets mad and fights. I actually am starting to think he likes to fight.

Oh Well.......