I'm being kept awake with feelings of loneliness, anger, sadness, jealousy. It's so hard to process and accept where I am. I'm trying so hard to remember that my needs were not being met in my M and how empty that felt. I was dissatisfied and could easily have been the one that left, but I didn't. I believed in my M, and still do, but I wanted things to change. How could I want someone back who seemingly hasn't changed and has no desire to change? Is this all part of processing abandonment?
