Infidelity in long-distance relationship

[Cadet]

I am committed to 'saving' myself. I've been doing a lot of self-analysis, 'Getting A Life' (I haven't been out this much since university), engaging in hobbies, exercising, going to counselling (although not finding it hugely helpful), taking more care of my appearance, trying self-hypnosis, and am trying to work out what (apart from my H) I actually want in life.

Good!

I'm still waking up overcome with grief and panic each morning...

Here is something else to work on