RV went well yesterday. We are getting into the decision to love. I have always believed it to be a decision, W not really. She has been caught up on the fleeting feeling, but hearing it from others and ironically she has the book but hasn't read it.

She is making progress in starting to realize that I have been the one doing the lifting now (I call it my cross to bear) and she has to pick up and thinking about deciding to love again and how to express that. We are still baby steps, but talking all this though is progress and she is trying now by more than "just being there."

Her expressing this gives me strength to carry on, even if I'm still not getting all back in return now that I need. Day by day...

J

M 43, W 40
T 22. M 14
D 14, S 9, S 8
DD 11/21/11
Retrouvaille 4/13/12--and the healing begins as we begin a new journey together!