no. i didnt call my sponsor. the urge for me to drink is not very strong. i think about it sometimes. then i just do something else. i know this hurt wont kill me. this crap with the W has been going on for 5 months now. i know thats not very long. it seems like a lifetime though. things have not gotten even remotely better. only worse.
my W doesnt drink at home. she goes out sometimes and comes home at bar close. kids are already sleeping then. i am tryin to be a good example to my kids. i want them to learn strength. thats why this is difficult. i dont want my son to think its ok to be treated horribly by women. i dont want my D to think its ok to treat men like garbage. they are wonderful children who deserve the best.
it was hard to set the boundries i did. i fear they came across as ultimatums. i meant what i said, and i will stick by it. i do not want a divorce, but there are limits to the amount of stuff i will put up with. i will always love my W. but i do not need to be with her and be walked all over to love her. if she thinks there is someone better out there, go find him. there might be. maybe not though.
