Bklyn Bombshell

[ces67]

I survive by believing he has lost his mind but what if he just lost all his love. What if he is completely sane??

So sorry BM. ((((BM)))). This statement above caught my attention. You are standing strong and I believe you will continue to do so. Just a reminder that this strength is yours. The statement above leads me to think you still have some hooks into your H as a source for your happiness and survival. I completely understand that, but as a friend just need to point it out. Your H will not make you happy regardless of whether or not your M is restored. And if that feeling is coming across to your H in any way, it may be more pressure that he can handle because he will never succeed at making you happy. No one can because that is up to you alone.

This is just my opinion and it is colored with my own situation. You had asked me about why a nice guy breaks and I've been thinking about that some more. My W has said she put expectations on me that we're not realistic. She wanted a "perfect" life and somehow thought that marrying me would provide that. When reality hit, I felt the blame and frustration of this disappointment. I carried the weight of her lost dream as my fault. While I did not leave, I did withdraw within myself to protect myself from the expectations I could never meet. That was not right of me but that's what I did.

I hope this week goes better for you. This is so much to deal with but I have no doubt you van do it. Wish there was a way to do it without the emotional pain but it seems that just comes with the territory. Hang in there.