I'm still on mod .. So my last post hasn't gone public yet ... But it will be interesting to see how MC goes today. There has been some improvement in the "touch" aspect, partially because I have been more direct about getting it. Example: when he was watching TV and I curled up on the couch next to him I waited a bit then put his hand on my hip. That sort of thing.
I think that I'm not sure what I want. Some days I want to stay and do whatever it takes to make it work, and then other days I get so tired of trying so hard that I just want it to be over already. Meaning, I just want to admit defeat and go rest.
I will say this, a bad marriage or "marriage in upheaval" is flipping exhausting and really [censored] the life out of a person.
