thats the hard part. letting go. i really do love my wife. i dont love her behaviors as of late. i do not agree with divorce. i took my vows seriously. i was raised in a non divorced home. my W was raised in a divorced home. it still affects her to this day. she says it doesnt when it suits her agendaa. when she is being honest, she has told me how much it huts her. i do not want that for my kids. they deserve better.
on that note, letting go seems like quitting. maybe it will wok. its worth a try. i think alot about what it would be like without my W. then i get depressed. i know thats not good. i try not to show it to her. i try to be upbeat. she wanted blankets to help her move yesterday and asked for the ones she doesnt like, and left me. i told her no. sorry. she got pissed and hung up. things like that make me feel like giving up. she doesnt get to walk all over me anymore, and she doesnt seem to like it very much.
would we be better off divorced, i dont know. ill pobably find out soon enough. she hasnt held up her end of any agreements so far. i want to stay married to her. i will not continue to be a doormat. maybe thats a 180?
