in regards to the kids. i tell them in no uncertain terms it is not their fault. they have done nothing wrong. it is between mom and dad. i also encourage S9 to talk to me about anything. he has a little. he is scared. i told him it is ok to be scared. im scared too. no matter what i will be here for him. i tell my kids i love them a couple times a day.
Great! You might add when S says he's scared that you will find a way to get through this. And that being scared and realizing it sometimes help you find solutions to problems. Help him find ways to deal with his fear. Kids feel very powerless in these situations.
If by giving up you mean letting go, yes. You can't make her love you, you can't make her come back.
But you can become a better man and create a good life for you and your kids. It sounds like they've already had way too much drama in their young lives.
You've taken the first steps in changing that chaos by getting sober.
Now let her go.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss