Thank you, Brookie. You must be tired of repeating the same message to me. I do hear you, really. I need to come up with a list of things that I am going to do instead of calling him. I just don't trust myself right now. When I initiate the call it is for a financial or logistical matter, but once that's done then I turn it to our relationship. I know I'm not going to get the answers that I want and that I can't trust what he tells me. I'm just so tired of the pain of this and the burden of having such bad feelings.
