Snodderly, thank you so much for all of the reminders and for the book recommendation. I will look for it today. I know I need to get to a better place. I'm just torchering myself right now. I'm so frustrated with myself for backsliding again. I have in big letters on the bathroom mirror "Do the opposite of what you feel" and Hope = Change. I keep backsliding on Friday, I believe, because by then I'm exhausted from the work week. I'm tired of raising kids alone. I just want this horrible situation to change. I am not picking up the phone to call him again.
