Need help on this unexpected journey/Stopping D

[sweetbabyred]

I'm trying to think of this as a journey that we both need to take (even though I may not have chosen it) and while we both explore what we want and need in life, we have a chance to choose each other again. And as one of the other poster's mentioned, my H seems to be scraping the bottom of the barrel. It hurts because I think I'm a much higher quality person than the OW, but I'm trying to concentrate on my bad habits and fix those, as I'll need to before I get into a relationship with anyone. Maybe I should take comfort in the fact that he could do so much better that maybe this OW won't last too long, but who knows? It would be easier to be able to skip to the end of the book and read the final chapter, to know if my DB efforts make a difference, but this is real life so I just have to take it one day at a time.