Bklyn Bombshell

[BklynMom]

Thanks V. I too like the pun of my new thread. Puts a positive spin on the story.

A lot of feelings are coming up today but I am taking it easy on myself and being super gentle.

One thing that gets me is maybe he just doesnt love me. He will never love me, so what am I doing. "I cant make your heart feel something it wont"

I see how he responds to me. Everything I do is wrong. Everything I do is another reason to him that he is doing the right thing. He cant stand me and even though all reasonable signs tell him to reconcile, the good of his children, finances, everything. He cant stand me. It really hurts.

I survive by believing he has lost his mind but what if he just lost all his love. What if he is completely sane??

Sorry to whine and be desperate but I had to vent. It was building up today