I loved reading this. I think I needed to see it. I have just realised that 90% of the time I initiate the conversation phone calls or texts so I stopped this week. I've had one text to confirm that he was coming over that night and the days when I hear nothing...well I get to the end of the day and I think that was a day he didn't want to talk to me. Like you I did realise that I can't control or speed things up. I told him that I'd let go. But I think actions speak louder than words. It's so nice to hear that it can turn around. Good luck keep me/us updated!