Picking up where we left off . . . I'm OnMyWay

[OnMyWay]

Been kind of cold around home since our Tuesday night transparency chat. Went to out Retro Post session last night and I think it was very positive for us both. We had both entered with a fair amount of anxiety, but walked away feeling good. We came home after and ended up doing something we used to do - sit in the courtyard with a log in the fire pit, enjoy wine, and talk for hours (I elected to skip the wine). It was very nice. I listened a lot and when the wine began to set in for her, she began to unload some things, which I handled very well . . . I am even taking much of it constructively.

What is with the once-a-week sex thing?

I have no idea. I was stunned. After she said it, she asked me, "What's wrong? Why do you have that blank look on your face?" Over the weekend, she had asked me if I still found her attractive. My intuition is telling me she may be having desires of some sort, but is not acting on them. Kind of testing things out, perhaps? I don't really want to speculate.

Plus, I found out my intuition was spot on here - a very pleasant surprise!

So, in the end, I had a wonderful evening with her, plain and simple - even with her self-medicating, it did bring down her guard enough to relax and enjoy herself, and allowed me to enjoy her more, as she was more open and less defensive. She's pulled back a bit this morning, but I expected that and I'll let her figure it out herself, while doing my best to keep myself open to anything she would like to share about our evening or otherwise.

so she's giving you enough "credit" to at least give it a shot. I think you got some small to medium size miracles but maybe you just cannot see them.

All-in-all, I feel like adding another chalk mark on 25's board of small miracles. I'm beginning to that they really will add up and make a difference.

I really am OnMyWay.