"It's different this time

[Cadet]

I'm writing because I'm bothered that I would want her back at all. I wanted out too right? This is sick.

From what you wrote it does not sound like you want out.

You must LET HER GO if you are to have any chance of keeping her.

Go back and re-read DR, it is counterintuitive.

Sorry you are back but it is now TIME to work on YOU.