I'm trying to detach and GAL now. It's just so hard when, in the split second when the alarm goes off and I wake up to stop it, I remember that my H doesn't want to be with me right now. Fortunately, I have a 6am kickboxing class, so I have to get out of bed, but it's really difficult sometimes.

Having no expectations is also hard when I've spent my whole life planning every little detail. That's something I know I need to loosen up on because nothing ever goes according to plan. My H has always been over backwards for his friends, and in the beginning I was worried that I'd hurt him because he was just too nice and I had a hard time putting others first. He even told me that he was afraid I'd leave him because I was strong and didn't need him, so it's a shock to me that he's the one trying to get out. Now it's time for me to get back that strong, independent person I used to be; I just have to see where she's been hiding.


M36 XH34
M-5 T7
4/11 H confused
5/11 ILYB
6/11 OW discovered
7/11 I move out, OW over
5/12-OW2,done->new EA, but H wont file
9/12 H "best bf ever" to EA/OW3
3/13 H/OW break up
H files 4/13
D 6/18/13