Have you and your H ever gone to a MC after everything happened?
What you're going through is called a "trigger". It's similar to post traumatic stress disorder that soldiers go through. Certain things will set you off and send your emotions out of wack. It could be a date, a song, a restaurant, etc.
Your H needs to continually make you feel safe. If you still aren't feeling it, then I would suggest you both go to MC so that the both of you learn what it takes to make each other feel safe and trusting.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
