Letting people live their lives and GALing...

[AntoniaB]

And while my post above says "in a rel. with someone new" it's not the relationship I want, ultimately. It's something, but it's not what I really want, and so I don't know how long it will last.

What I am more concerned with is the fact that I look around me and it seems like 90% of people are paired up and I'm this free agent. And I don't like being a free agent. I look at people in relationships who take it all for granted and I want to shake them and say "do you know how much easier it would be on you when you have to decide to end a pet's life and you have ONE OTHER PERSON TO BE WITH THERE WITH YOU???"

It is all on me. All of it. The decisions, the pressure. The aftermath. All on me. I just feel like I will never ever get used to this. There is so much pressure, being alone.

I'm sorry for the rambling. I'm just sad and troubled.