I dont feel good at all about this but I do feel better then I expected I would feel. I feel good about myself. That I am doing all I can to try to rescue our family but I am not stopping him.
H received the latest letter my H/lawyer sent his L. He didnt like it. I have insisted that we have a weekly schedule. H thinks because we both do freelance work the schedule should be negotiated on a job to job basis. We have been operating with a schedule for 1 month now and I like it better. It gives us a starting point to negotiate and we can be flexiable if necessary.
H called me to respond to the letter and let me know that I would be served today. At the end I said I think its a little manipulative that you would call me to talk about this since you know I would do anything for you. I was crying.
Although you knew this day was coming, it obviously hurt. I'm sorry things are unfolding like they are. But you know, you've been preparing for this day and working on your detachment and in the end, you will come out so much stronger than you could ever have imagined.
It is really good to see you standing your ground and setting/enforcing your boundaries. It is obviously helping you cope, even though the pain is so strong.
Try to muscle through this period. Before you know it, you'll have passed through to the other side where the sun shines bright and warms your shoulders and soothes your soul.
(((BK)))
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It's easy to find our bottom, it is our top that requires cultivation.
Every rough spot adds to our emotional constitution. -Barney Fife
