Not sure where to start, Part 2

[wishing, hoping]

Thanks, BK. I don't feel amazing. I often wonder what the heck am I doing and why am I doing this again? H has told me he has feelings for me, but not romantic feelings. That he lost those feelings and he doesn't know when or if they will ever come back. He says he has tried and tried to get them back but they are gone. I guess I just keep going based on the premise that if he felt that way before, he can feel that way again. Sometimes I feel like a sucker for punishment fighting a losing battle. It is hard to stay encouraged.