My Story So Far. Is this even worth saving?

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Feeling a bit more hopeful today. I went into work and am feeling a bit better, though I sound and look miserable, I've been told (I feel like saying, "Gee, thanks!" lol). I feel like there's a chance we can make it. H said that he would wash the sheets today (he's getting off work early) and re-make the bed so he'll sleep with me again tonight. That makes me feel better. I know that I sound like a sook (think this might be a regional expression for someone who is whiny), but it's very important that we sleep in the same bed (barring work travel, excessive snoring or other extreme reasons). I just miss waking up to that soft warm body next to me.

I also feel like he's being a bit more affectionate with me. I still feel like there's a distance between us and have trouble finding something to talk about, but I'm hopeful we can get through this. It's weird. I feel like there is so much that remains unsaid (and will remain unsaid until he initiates that convo. Trying to give him space.), but it's like since we can't talk about it but it's a huge 800 lb gorilla in the room and we can't really talk about anything else until it's addressed, kwim? It feels like we are just dancing around it, but I'm running out of dance moves at the moment.

Still focusing on GAL. Tonight we have our weekly movie date with a friend and then I have to finish off all my necklaces and a few bracelets for the craft fair. Then the fair all day Saturday, Saturday night and Sunday I'm finishing my rug hooking piece and then we go to a movie. And I have to remember to send my sister her birthday card! Phew!

Busy week. Too busy GAL-ing. I guess that's why it hit me a bit harder when I was home sick. All I had time to do was sit and dwell on it.