He asked for divorce after coming back from Iraq..

[A&J2009]

trying to GAL little by little, its so much harder than i thought, went to Finland for a little trip with my sister and her boyfriend, I'm so happy they are sweet to each other and kiss and cuddle but it just makes me want to cry being next to them. sounds selfish. H is still not talking to me, he's moving to California in 3 days, and got a new car and asking people to go with him on a road trip from IL to CA, and looking for a fun places to stop at, and all that i found out from FB and not him((((( its just killing me that he doesn't want me to be part of his life any more, not calling, not texting. he's not interested in what am i doing, if I'm ok.Its breaking my heart he doesn't want to share any good news with me.I've always been the first one he called to share something, how could this all change in a blink of an eye!!??

when I was in Finland my dad wrote H a letter, i didn't know about it till I got back, my dad told him that H should think really good about us and we're both wonderful people and deserve to be together. and the next day H wrote him back which was progress already, cause 2 months ago he wouldn't even write back to anyone of my family when they tried to talk to him, would just ignore them. H wrote - thank you for the message and i hope everything is well out there. I'm still fighting in my head so i cant think rationally right now. but I'm not rushing into any decisions though. I'm still thinking everything out. thank you

i don't know what to think! he's writing that he's fighting in his head and not rushing into decisions and at the same time offering girls on FB to take a road trip with him??? what's going on in his head? it really really hurts me that he didn't offer me to go on this trip but some girls!! we planned it together. it makes me so sad.

don't even know how much time he's going to need to figure everything out. and of course i want to hope for the best but at the back of my mind I'm so afraid to be left with nothing.
I really don't know what to think.


Ps. Got a paper today that one of the DB books that i ordered is waiting for me at the post office!!! excited to get it and start reading, hope the other one will come soon too.


I know all of us here are struggling and surviving and fighting for our marriages, god bless you all. would greatly appreciate you talking some time and reading my story.