snodderly~ Thank you! I like your line about their empathy chip being broken. However, with my H, I feel like if it were his family or some co-worker, he would have shown more interest.... since he talks to them like everything is fine, and he's just so great.... and of course ever the flirt with some of the work whores... um... I mean women.... yeah.... that's what I meant.... lol.
Anyway, I've gotten myself to a good place these last few days. Let me just tell you all Friday was a BAD day for me. I was really depressed, and not just because of the funeral. While I was at the church after the funeral,I was watching my dad with my sister's kids (half sister) and how his whole face lit up, it made me sad to think I may never give him grandchildren, between the PCOS and the H with his head up his butt, I just couldn't get myself out of depression Friday. When I got home I had a crying, praying mess on the floor moment, we are talking sobbing. Well God must have heard me because my sister texted me to see if I was ok, because I didn't seem like myself, which it's strange she picked up on that because I don't see her often. So I told her no and briefly filled her in on what my problem has been ( I haven't told many people), and since this seems to be getting worse not better, and could still get far worse I told her. She of course was blown away, everyone in normalville usually is. So I will be meeting with her sometime when her schedule allows. Then on Sunday my pastors wife asked me to go to dinner with her one night. I told her her timing was perfect, she corrected me and said, "No the Spirits timing is perfect." While sitting in the church service they asked for volunteers for VBS (vacation Bible school), my counselor has been telling me to volunteer and I felt compelled, so I am now doing that and we already had our first meeting! So what a busy week! Also I just feel like the Lord has filled me with his peace again, and I am so appreciative of that! He has reached down his hand, picked me up, and dusted me off, and I'm back to not feeling anxious and trusting whatever is supposed to happen will happen, God has a plan and he doesn't need my help, He knows what He's doing. LOL
Now back to my super awesome garden! lol I am planting a bunch of veggies and some fruit, I have a lot of seeds started.... green beans, peas, lettuce, sunflowers, pumpkins, watermelon, several types of peppers, carrots..... and I do have to watch the rabbits I have 4 who are claiming my backyard as there own!
Another thing about the garden boxes, my dad actually helped me build them (I didn't have a truck to get the wood), and I learned that my grandfather (his dad) used to LOVE to garden. My dad told me my grandfather had had a huge garden bigger than my backyard! Said he would be out there tending to it till sundown most nights. I said too bad he isn't around now he could teach me to garden (he passed away when I was 4), but then I said maybe he could be my garden angel! So who knows. I thought it was really cool to learn that about my grandfather.
However, with my H, I feel like if it were his family or some co-worker, he would have shown more interest.... since he talks to them like everything is fine, and he's just so great.... and of course ever the flirt with some of the work whores... um... I mean women.... yeah.... that's what I meant.... lol.
