i know i have a hard road ahead. i question it everyday. i am so sad for my kids. i let them down. i feel like a failure. they are so important to me. i am doing everything i can to be a good father. i am scared how this separation/divorce is going to affect them. they deserve a happy family. we were once. we can be again. i am going to do everything i can. if my W doesn't want to do things, thats her deal. i'm wondering if maybe the after the LRT is more for me. i have pulled back alot. i have set my boundries. they seem to mean nothing to her. idk. i am so confused. if i had money i would get a DB coach. oh well. we will see what the separation brings. if she thinks she can go act like a single lady, thats what she will be. i cannot put up with bar hopping and dating/sex whatever. i wish i could say no matter what, i would be there for her. i can't.
bond- thanks again. its good to hear someone thinks i am doing good. there is nothing she could do to ruin my sobriety. that is important to me, because I WANT IT. no other reason. i am trying to stay positive with her, but everyday i feel more and more like giving up.
