Detached, but not Broken-a diary of a LRT

[Broken74]

You're welcome Heartbroke, yeah don't follow in my footsteps I've made significant blunders along the way.

Man I'm not sure why but I'm having significant struggles today. Haven't spoken with her almost 3 weeks our last communication was a brief email on the 23rd, and her sending the checks and letter that I got on Sunday. I honestly think seeing her handwriting got me spun up which is ridiculous, that or the fact that she was thinking about me for a brief moment even though only related to financial matters.

I really want to reach out to her but since that HASN"T WORKED for 8 months I'm going to stay the course, I have no other choice as my hourglass is running out.

I would like to elicit other opinions on the 529k investments for my stepchildren. Since it is for them, and not for her, this would not be considered a pursuing behavior right? I want to do it for them, and think that it shows a 180 for me since it is a way to show unconditional love for them, but I am wondering if that "tie" could prove negative since I am in effect still "doing something" that shows I am "still here". She hasn't mentioned anything about it at all, and I think it is the right thing to do from my heart, so unless anyone thinks that is a pursuing behavior I'm going to continue to do it.

Thanks in advance for any feedback and good luck to all in your respective sitch's!