Thanks. I don't know if ti really does me any good. Sometimes I don't even know she notices the changes, or if she even cares or relates it to our relationship. I don't even know if she knows how much it hurts me for him to be gone. I know I should be doing this with no expectations at all - and I am trying to. Really don't have a choice. It's just a lot of deep breaths to take.
I hope she is serious when she says she is open to working on the relationship. She hasn't said exactly what that means to her, but that is why I am trying this hard.
