Picking up where we left off . . . I'm OnMyWay

[OnMyWay]

As for her not wanting to do a contract, well, that just means she is not willing to cut off contact with OM and probably won't be honest about it. This is standard. If you aren't willing to risk that, leave now.

I never had the expectation that she would actually go cold turkey on that. Honestly, it doesn't really bother me, as I don't think he is waiting around for her to figure it all out. Most likely, should she bail, he won't be there for her. I do dislike the lying about it, however. Sneakiness makes the hair stand up on the back of my neck.

BTW, her spew about your "hypocrisy" is almost certainly deep emotional pain from your EA and PA coming out instead as anger. I really hope you can see that.

Absolutely. I even mentioned/recognized that we had caused each other great pain and that, I'd like us to get to a place where the healing can begin. She'll have to chew on that a while, I think, to see it more clearly. She's still wrapped pretty tight.

In terms of working on yourself, focus on dumping the passive-aggressiveness.

Working hard on this.

What is with the once-a-week sex thing?

I have no idea. I was stunned. After she said it, she asked me, "What's wrong? Why do you have that blank look on your face?" Over the weekend, she had asked me if I still found her attractive. My intuition is telling me she may be having desires of some sort, but is not acting on them. Kind of testing things out, perhaps? I don't really want to speculate.