Yes, I miss my H too. The sick feeling I every now and then get in the pit of my stomach is incredible. I'm feeling like a pendulumn going back and forth with thoughts and feelings. My H left on a business trip three weeks ago and is returning tonight, I'm picking him up. The night before he left I spent the night away because the night before that he rejected me coming to spend the evening with him. I didn't want him to see me cry and I didn't want to show disappointment or anger. He got the message and knew he hurt me bad. The day he left I had to fill in for him (work) and I went straight to work from downtown. We spoke, a few times before he caught his flight, no apologies. Now I am faced with picking him up and I am filled with anxiety. Practice the 180 (which I always am). How was the flight, you look tired, be a good listener... His life situation we discuss and when I add to the conversation about home/work I feel that he doesn't seem to add to the conversation or really cares. MLC I've been stuck in conversation like this for sometime now. He has called while he has been gone without the passion in the past. My little expectations are always just imagination! I'm nervous about tonight but suspect it's going to be the same as always. Cordial and cold. How I wish we were past all this already. I long for the days before MLC
