I have breathed a sigh of relief that my W is ok. She has another test in four months.
W brought up our R and is still confused and does not know where we are heading. I listened and did not add much since I really did not know what to say. I know that when I say anything or put the slightest pressure on her she pulls back.
I know that we it has been only two months since W dropped the bomb and while my relationship with the kids has improved immensely my R with the W has been a seriies of backwards and forwards steps. I am not trying to get too high on good days or too low on bad days.
Today for instance I was filled with bad thoughts (I.e. the D is imminent, W will move out) when there was nothing going on. W sees that I am anxious and then she gets irritated.
I don't have patience and then this gets compounded with my fixer mentality. I have been doing great with the space and haven't initiated email, text, or phone calls for over a week. She calls everyday on her way home and I have to tell myself not to get overly excited to hear from her.
I brought up going on a date on Friday but W said she will have to see. Iam worried that my nerves will get the better of me and screw this situation up.
