You have a hard row to hoe in front of you. Maybe just working on being the man you were meant to be is enough.

Then the 2 of you can figure out where she fits in the equation.

The most important thing, other than your sobriety, is keeping your kids from being collateral damage.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss