Not sure where to start, Part 2

[2012sf]

I haven't gotten to read all your threads, but just the last few pages. I will make time tonight to read the rest. I can see similarities though.

I really relate to how he affects your mood. I am the same way. I am trying to really hard to learn how to detach and not let his mood set the tone for how I feel the rest of the time after I see him, but it is hard. And I get so anxious thinking about possible scenarios before we get together too. Also not good. Sometimes it is almost a relief when they aren't around, because of that rollercoaster, but then when you have a good time and start to feel like there was progress, it is such a high. I'm in a partial high right now. I had a fairly good morning with my husband when the last few days had been rough, and he just texted a little bit ago to check on our son, and to say he'd see us tonight for the family night activities at school. It feels so good to see him with us and relaxed. I am very on guard at the same time though, because it seems like once things go up, they last a day or so and come crashing down. He was expressing guilt this morning about the kids and missing them, so I'm going to be like a ninja right now about avoiding deep talk and keeping it from escalating. I wish they could just BE for awhile!