Thank you all for the advice, I really appreciate it. I still haven't talked to my FIL, but if nothing else we still plan on going to dinner Saturday evening, so I will be making my decision from there.
Aside from all that drama, one of my uncles died last week, when I told H he had passed all he said was, "I'm sorry to hear that." There was no emotion in his voice or anything, and hasn't asked anything since. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't expecting some big out pouring of emotion. I think it hurt more because when I got to my dad's on Thursday night so we could go to the viewing he kind of looked around me. I said, "Were you expecting someone to be with me dad?" He said he didn't know, he thought maybe.... It just broke my heart because it hurt dad's feelings.
Since then I have been super busy, and honestly not really worrying about H much. I love him and want him to get through this, but I am finally not anxious all of the time and am actually getting more involved at church, despite my original apprehension of having to explain things to people I don't know. I talked to my counselor about it and his simple answer is quite true, then don't. lol Of course, simple.
H still barely looks at me or speaks to me, but on the upside he has rediscovered how to put the dishes in the dishwasher. He actually wrote out "thank you!" on the note I had left on his door stating I had paid the phone and electric bills. Before he barely scribbled thanks, or just threw the note away. Looking at all the little positives, no matter how little..... of course he could come home tonight and get really upset with me because I opened "his" door and "his" windows, but hey it's beautiful out and I wanted to air out the house, so he will have to get over it if he does get upset.
H does seem to be cycling again..... drank 2 beers last night, and one the night before, he seems to do that when the depression is setting back in, or surfacing. But who knows, I'm not focusing on it much, just noticed, since he cycles all kinds of strange.... still only cycled that once to making dinners with me and watching movies....hard to tell what other crazy stuff could be ahead.
OH, and I am excited to announce I have build my garden boxes this past weekend! I'm anxious to see if I can actually grow a garden this year.... boy I hope so!
He actually wrote out "thank you!" on the note I had left on his door stating I had paid the phone and electric bills. Before he barely scribbled thanks, or just threw the note away. Looking at all the little positives, no matter how little..... of course he could come home tonight and get really upset with me because I opened "his" door and "his" windows, but hey it's beautiful out and I wanted to air out the house, so he will have to get over it if he does get upset. 
