Hey Everyone. Been so busy...working,post-deployment bonding with the kids & dealing with the unfortunate new normality of this sitch. It's hard to believe- M for 17 yrs, I leave for Afghanistan...get a dear john letter, 3 months later I'm in D court. My sitch is odd- We still see each other every day....I live in the house w/ the kids , she has a small place nearby. It seems as though she is pulling back emotionally. At one point I was sure that we were going to reconcile. She had said the D would allow a fresh start, putting the old R away & starting fresh...taking baby steps, healing, growing and maybe we can begin again, a sequel. Now, she is growing colder and more distant. I've done a 180, still seeing my C,working on being more positive, absolutely no angry outbursts, validating my W (soon to officially be X).... Maybe she feels suffocated. She has said that I've made huge changes, she loves me, I'm a good man.... So what am I doing wrong. Trying to be positive... but, I miss her terribly, I'm so lonely and there is an emptiness no DBing can fill. I really thought it would get easier with time- but just the opposite. The hope seems to be draining away like sand in an hour-glass.
(F.K.A. Broken422)
US 40's M 17,T 19 2 BOYS 13,16 Divorced 4/2012 11/2011 W SAID SHE WANTS D
"When it is dark enough,you can see the stars"- Ralph Waldo Emerson
