I am fighting a temptation to call her today. When does this get easier? Is it normal that I should feel so badly this far along in the process?
Don't call, post or read here instead. It gets easier as TIME goes along but this is VERY hard stuff. Yes it is NORMAL what you are feeling and you are not very far along in the process at all. Be gentle with yourself and lower your expectations for FIXING yourself too. It will happen, but you have to go back to my first post and remember that you have this AWESOME gift of TIME that I keep telling everyone about. Of course most people want to return the GIFT but unfortunatley there is a policy against that.
You are doing fine NG, good job on the excercising and working on your self.
