Stuck in Holding Pattern

[ben11]

I don't really need to worry about the texts much... I think that was her way to respond to my message, without really responding. I don't expect to get many/any more messages like that.

And how I'd reply to a boss that fired me? I dunno. Depends I guess why I was fired and how long it's been. I want to show the boss that he fired me by mistake, so may as well keep the road to R open, or 'paved and smooth'.

One thing I know is that carrying a grudge is way too much work. I don't want to do anything out of spite, retaliation, or vindictiveness, which includes deliberately ignoring messages from W. Sure, I don't need to expand on them, but I can acknowledge them in a way that doesn't smell of persual. I want to be who I am: a fun, happy, and loyal person. I want to treat others how I'd like to be treated. I've wasted time in the past being angry and vindictive (not just with W), and it never got me anywhere. This is a 180 just for life in general. Feels good to let go of the grudges.